Life As I See It. Waiting on Boston

I don’t care about anything But I want to care about something so badly. 

I don’t want to do anything. But I don’t want to just sit. 

I don’t want to be with anyone. But I don’t want to be alone. 

I don’t know what do, and I can’t find the answers. 

Or if they are, in fact, right in front of me, I can’t recognize it. Does anyone see the answer? I mean, I know the answer. But does anyone see the detailed step by step process? Because I am completely inept and ignorant. I could use a little help.